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An Update For My Peeps!

I am finally triumphant in my job search as some of you probably already know by now. Working at CGP The work is long and hard but the pay is good. It makes more of a man out of me everyday. Its like that workout at the gym I always tried to achieve but never could. I'm making new good friends too. If I do decide that the work is too much for me or I decide I don't like it. I'm not quitting I'm getting another job first. Then I'll give my two week notice. Because jobs are way too hard to come by. That's whats up for all those that where wondering.


My Mind is Moving In Circles

I don't know what to do. What to do when all the answers lead you back to nowhere? It's not that I don't care. I just don't get it. Maybe I will soon I hope.
Lately I've been doing a lot of reflecting. (That's thinking about things in case you don't know, now you know.) I've got the girl of my dreams. Which is something that many of you know I've wanted for a very long time now. Now I just need the career to continue on with my life. I've tried so hard to get a job at this point it doesn't seem like it is going to happen. I'm not giving up. I'm just being realistic. I've tried for over 2 years at Deroyal and got one interview. I had a good job at Volunteer but as a result of my parents being over-protective and me still being too young to know what a good job was when I had one, I walked out and quit. On one hand I look at it as one of the biggest mistakes I ever made. On the other hand I look at it as something I had to do. I needed to get back in touch with my best friends. I needed to get partying all the time out of my system. I did things I needed to do so I could grow up. Having a (pretty much) full time job at Volunteer didn't allow me the time to do any of those things. I had the money sure but with all the lost communication from friends and all the above mentioned things I just needed a different way and got that, that way.

I hate the way this blog is turning out so far it keeps sounding like excuses to me...I don't want to be the person always making excuses for every thing.

I'd have to thank my ex-girlfriend for one thing and one thing only. She made me a stronger person. I'd also have to think my fiance's mom. Her craziness was like nails on a chalkboard for a very long time now she seldom bothers me at all. (Just for the record all her family loves me to death.) Which has also made me an even stronger person. I'd also have to give the biggest thanks of all to my fiance Whitney. If we never was I was content to just living with my parents and playing video games all the time for the rest of my life. Because of her I want to move on with my life. She has also made me an even stronger person.

I recently found out while out and about with my one and only that all the things my ex said where complete lies. Two I already knew. I'm not a rapist. Another one is something my fiance Whitney probably wouldn't want me to say. I'll just say is I'm more of a man than she said I was. She also said some people wanted to kick my ass for the whole "rape" thing. Well, one way or another I've ran into all of those people. They don't want to kick my ass at all.

I had one chance at a really good job at DTR as a security guard. Me being a complete dumbass at the time let my ex talk me out of the job. (Before the rape and while we were still hanging out with each other.) I had a job at England's. Unfortunately, I got a job where they had went through 13 people in 2 years. I made it 14 for them. There's a possiblity that I might be getting a job at Cumberland Gap Industries. I'm trying really hard to get a job there at the moment. Gonna see how Homesteaders goes tomorrow.

If I don't find a job soon I look at it as if I don't have a choice to go to college. Me and my baby deserve our own place. It's made me very stressed lately. If I do go to college I'm taking criminal justice to be a cop. It was my favorite class in high school, the only class I can honestly say I still remember every thing I've learned in that class. Plus, you can get payed an extra hour every day for going to the gym. Which I love to do anyway.

As much as I'd love be a wrestler it doesn't seem like a very good idea. You make very little money and have to do a ton of traveling. While also having a day job just to get by. Thats how it is while you work indy shows. If I did by some chance ever got to TNA or WWE. Then yeah, I could make more than a good living doing that.

I can also say that I much more of a religious person now. I'm not a church going person. There is lots of reasons. One being, is I don't see the point of having to dress up just to worship The Lord. Last time I read he didn't care what kind of clothes you have on. Also, Gospel music really isn't my thing. If I every sang my reindition of amazing grace (complete with shouting and pig squeals) in front of the entire congragation they would probably want to burn me at the cross.

So there in a nutshell is all my current thoughts (if you can believe it.)


I'm so aggravated with my life not going anywhere. So tomorrow I'm going to change all that. No more excuses. No more sleeping into the afternoon. I'm not taking no for an answer. I will find a job tomorrow. I'm tired of being 22 years old and still living with my parents. I'm done with that. I will make my own way. I will make my own life one way or another. I don't care if I have the support of 50 people or nobody. I will succeed. I will no longer accept things as they are. Satisfaction is the death of desire. I'm no longer satisfied with life. Its time to change all that. I want my own place not only for me but for my fiance as well. And oh yeah I gotta say thanks for you people that has added me as friends!

Hoping To Hold Her Forever

I love her more than anything
I always think it's her every time the phone rings
Alone, I don't want to be apart
She is the one and only that completes my heart
Together forever is what I hope we will be
I wonder if she can see how much I love her
How much I cherish every touch
How much I reminisce about every kiss
And how much I pray to God this love lasts forever


What to do?

I'm really bored right now. I'm waiting for Whitney to wake up. Wanted to play WoW today but my server Runetotem is down. Can't play Grand Theft Auto 4 the tv is used or will soon be used. So theres nothing to do and I'm bored.

The SweetneZ

What's your nickname, and how did you get it?

The SweetneZ, is my very own created nickname. People say you can't give yourself your own nickname but I did mine. Here's the story. Years ago, three to be exact. It was my senior year of high school in Criminal Justice class. Some of my friends where picking some fun at me. It wasn't like harassment or anything, just simple clean joking around. When out of nowhere I burst out, "Stop trying to put The SweetneZ down!" From that point on it has stuck since. One of the main reasons that it has worked so well is because my last name is Sweet.